(Note: I found this letter to myself written in October 1987. I had been living in Australia for five years, and had spent six months traveling through Africa and Europe. I wrote it on the airplane as I was flying to my family home in Denver.)

Over six years ago I left—a girl, a seeker.

I’ve grown. I’ve changed. Changes have been rapid in the past few months as I’ve gotten to know White Eagle. (Note: At this time I didn’t know I could channel, I only knew that White Eagle was my guide.)

I’m coming home a woman. Full, abundant, wise, rich, mature, harvest-solid, harvest-spicy. Maybe it has been happening slowly, this acceptance of myself as a woman. But only now has it merged with the girl I was before today.

Funny how it happens. Meditating somewhere over New York, White Eagle was before me, holding my hands. I drank in his calm peace, his kind sparkle, his spirit. But what was that behind me? A female. She had what White Eagle has but different. She was woman manifest. Good and giving. A strength, a guide. I felt her hands on my shoulders. I absorbed her femininity, her motherhood, her fertility, her wealth… a goddess.

I am changed. She is now in me. In the last few miles of my 6 year journey, I am now that which I left to find, that which I somehow feared. I am now ready to accept the power, the attractiveness, the responsibility of being a woman.

Miracles are unexpected. I laugh to think that I’ve been chasing around the globe for this, and it happened as I waited for the flight attendant to bring me my Coke.

I have matured. I am a woman now. I am ready to go home and make a life, a home, a family. Welcome home Jonette!

(CopyRight 2015 www.JonetteCrowley.com)

Jonette is a spiritual adventurer, and modern-day shaman who leads spiritual tours to power places around the globe. She is a gifted channel, oracle, and author of the internationally best-selling books “The Eagle and the Condor” and “Soul Body Fusion®.” She is founder of the Soul Body Fusion® method for healing and beyond. With her guide “Mark” she teaches people to reach multi-dimensional and quantum states of consciousness.  www.JonetteCrowley.com, www.SoulBodyFusion.com